tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22131800573666010592024-03-05T10:09:19.206+03:00Living LindsayMy Life as a Transgender Girl in KenyaLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.comBlogger150125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-36214282348570749072019-04-25T14:09:00.001+03:002019-04-25T14:10:17.414+03:00I'M BAAAAAACCCKKKK!!!!!I AM BACK BIACHES!!!<br />
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HAHAHA!!!!!<br />
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Did y'all miss me?<br />
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I've had such a great, difficult, exhausting, confusing and wonderful few years since I last posted.<br />
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I am now happily married to a wonderful man and we are planning a future together. We actually didn't think it would be possible to get married but since we are 'unique', we got it done! Yay!<br />
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I've also added some considerable weight! *sigh* It is both good and bad. I've been struggling with the weight issue for a while now and while I love that my body is all curvy and sexy and I look like a <i>mamaa</i>, I still battle with weight stuff and self stigma. I feel like I am overweight and that I desperately need to shed a few.<br />
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BUTT...<br />
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I am hopeful that in the next year or so I will manage to cut down my weight to a manageable and agreeable number. <i>Pale nimefika imekua sasa kidogo too much bana..</i><br />
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ALSO...<br />
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We are doing great things in terms of advancing the rights of people like me in Kenya and in the region. I am sure some of you already know me in person but the rest <i>sio lazima mnijue.</i> My life is my life and I like to keep it private. <i>Mnaelewa, sindio?</i><br />
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Keeping my life private has always been of prime importance to me. I've never wanted to be in the public eye. My friends like Audrey have always challenged me to at least do an interview or something...<br />
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<i>LAKINI...</i><br />
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I am concerned about my safety. My family, my relatives...friends... and to repeat, my SAFETY! It isn't that I don't want the public to know about our existence, challenges, struggles and lives, but that I need to feel secure.<br />
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I mean, I live in a rented apartment! What if I am kicked out of my house? What if the environment I occupy is suddenly hostile and I am targeted, undressed, beaten, humiliated, paraded etc? What if?<br />
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What if they go for my mother? What if they fire her for having a daughter like me?<br />
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These are the questions that run through my mind whenever I think about doing a TV interview.<br />
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But DAAAYYYUUUMMM!!<br />
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I'd look HOT in an interview dontchathink? ;-) hehe<br />
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That is all for today..<br />
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Toodles!<br />
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Lind.Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-16162814868877414492015-11-02T15:15:00.000+03:002015-11-02T15:34:00.600+03:00While I Am Away...So....<br />
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I have been away...yup. Not news. Been busy. Plus, not much to write about really, I've just submerged into 'normal' Nairobi life, with a few bumps here and there, like the other day my passport being seen and the M being noticed and me grabbing my passport as the security guard hands it to me and tells me that "there is a mistake" and me running away like hell! LOL..<br />
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Despite that... I do read a few things here and there.<br />
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I read Monica Robert's blog <<a href="http://transgriot.blogspot.com/">http://transgriot.blogspot.com</a>><br />
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Susan's Place <<a href="https://www.susans.org/">https://www.susans.org</a>><br />
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Janet Mock's Blog <<a href="http://janetmock.com/blog/">http://janetmock.com/blog/</a>><br />
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And this new African blog Our Trans Journey <<a href="http://ourtransjourney.com/">http://ourtransjourney.com</a>><br />
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:-)<br />
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That's just about it!Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-60750819607582978292014-09-04T15:30:00.001+03:002014-09-04T15:30:22.253+03:00My Autobio UpdatedHey folks,<br />
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I've just added an update to <a href="http://kenyantg.blogspot.com/p/lindsay-autobiography.html" target="_blank">My Autobiography</a>.<br />
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Please check it out :-)Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-33623562627024299112014-06-30T15:53:00.001+03:002014-06-30T15:53:57.359+03:00Still Sucks....<div style="color:#000; background-color:#fff; font-family:HelveticaNeue, Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, Lucida Grande, sans-serif;font-size:10pt"><div>It still sucks</div><div>Still sucks to meet a guy you like</div><div>And not be able to be open with them</div><div>Because you don't know their reaction</div><div>When they find out you have a d**k</div><div><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">It still sucks</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Still sucks when he is so wonderful to you</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Makes you so happy and free</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">But still can't say anything</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Can't tell him about your genitals</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">It still sucks</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Still sucks when you're so into him</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Want to know more of him</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">But you hold back</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Because you have a d**k</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">It still sucks</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Still sucks because you're scared</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Scared he will hate you and detest you</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Maybe even beat you up, or worse, kill you</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Because they found out you're a girl with a d**k</div></div>Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-58032298662538384652014-06-24T01:27:00.001+03:002014-06-24T01:27:57.102+03:00Just Checking In...<div style="color:#000; background-color:#fff; font-family:HelveticaNeue, Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, Lucida Grande, sans-serif;font-size:10pt"><div style="" class="">Hey guys,</div><div style="" class=""><br style="" class=""></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Some of you have emailed me and asked why I don't blog anymore.</div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br style="" class=""></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Well, its not that I have closed the blog or anything, its just that I don't feel like there is much to say anymore.</div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br style="" class=""></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal; text-align: center;"><img style="" class="" alt="http://favim.com/orig/201104/25/Favim.com-23925.jpg" src="http://favim.com/orig/201104/25/Favim.com-23925.jpg"></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br style="" class=""></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">I am pretty much happy with life. Just that I want to do that surgery so bad.</div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br style="" class=""></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">That is all.</div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br style="" class=""></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Love you guys.</div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br style="" class=""></div><div class="" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13.3333px; font-family: HelveticaNeue,Helvetica Neue,Helvetica,Arial,Lucida Grande,sans-serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">XOXO<br style="" class=""></div></div>Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-94391233864246362013-10-18T12:02:00.000+03:002013-10-18T12:02:28.767+03:00Should I Give Up On Straight Men?I am giving up. I am giving up on men. Straight men to be precise.<br />
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I am so giving up and walking away altogether. Here's why.<br />
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<b>Conversation with "Aleki"</b><br />
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Aleki likes me. He reads this blog. I know there are others too who like me. But here's why I wouldn't bother with them.<br />
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<i>They like me <u>because I am trans</u>.</i><br />
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Not for anything else, but because I am trans. Should I be insulted? Should I just say "well at least he knows that I am trans so that part of the conversation is sorted..."?<br />
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<b>Conversation with my friend D</b><br />
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D notices I'm mopey and wonders why. I tell him that I like this guy but he doesn't seem to like me as much as I like him, despite him saying he likes me. D goes to confront him. (This conversation has been downgraded to a more PC version)<br />
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"You were with my friend and now you're with her friend. That's messed up."<br />
"I like Lind ..... but you know D, ... I like pussy"<br />
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D comes and tells me what transpired. I break down. "...I like her.... but I like pussy" rings in my head over and over again.<br />
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<b>Conversation with my other friend N</b><br />
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I like transwomen. Is that so bad? Its really not about their being trans, but just their being who they are. Is it wrong for me to have a preference to transwomen?<br />
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<b>Analysis</b><br />
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It is indeed clear that I don't want to date a guy who likes me only because I have a odd-looking ladybits.<br />
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But it is also clear that most straight men (since I am into men ... mostly) just <i>like pussy</i>.<br />
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I can't ignore that. Nor can I avoid it. It is how it is.<br />
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<i>I hate my genitals</i>.<br />
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Those who like me (and any other transwoman out there who's like me) need to get this clear: I don't like my odd-looking ladybits. I just don't. Yes, I know y'all have told me many times that I should love my bits just the way they are but I think y'all don't get it. I am a woman. Women don't have such bits. They have pussies.<br />
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I crave for the day I can just spread my legs wide without feeling uncomfortable.<br />
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It isn't sexual. It sounds sexual, but it isn't. I am not having genital surgery so that I can <i>ride someone</i>. No. I am having it for my own peace of mind. It is utterly necessary. Many of you won't get it because you've never felt discomfort with your own bodies. Some of you may. It's like having a tumor on your neck. Once you're able to get rid of it, you become a different person. You're less conscious. Less bothered. Your self esteem goes through the roof.<br />
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That's what I want. FREEDOM.<br />
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Let me remain single for now. Its a much easier space to be in. Lonely, but easier.<br />
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XOXO<br />
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LindLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-61857347079769101082013-10-08T10:56:00.001+03:002013-10-08T10:56:23.012+03:00Yeah, I'm The Boring Type Of Transwoman<div style="color:#000; background-color:#fff; font-family:tahoma, new york, times, serif;font-size:10pt"><div>So on further conversation with Aleki (see previous post), apparently I am boring. Nowadays I bash people about their misogyny, about their lack of understanding and many other things.</div><div><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Yes I am. Boring that is.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">I am trying to educate you guys here. About me. About being a transwoman. About living as a woman who has an unusual genital composition and is terribly uncomfortable about it.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Get it? I doubt it.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="text-align: center; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTRJPTy32qCjMl7hGaxOlJj5ldD3U7E4D6tXPRp2Fr_QK1_JtN8zQ"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">A man who wants a transwoman just because she is trans will never understand why she detests, abhors, hates the genitals she has. NEVER.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Why?</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Because for him, being with a transgirl is a fantasy.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Chick with dick.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">I so fucking hate that!</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">I am not a chick with a dick. Don't you dare call me that. I will slap the bejesus out of you.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Why you ask?</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Because I am a woman. I am dysphoric because I am a woman who was born with a penis. A woman who had to live over 20 years of her life as male. Confused, baffled, and troubled. </div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">FOR TWENTY FUCKING YEARS.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent;"><span style="font-style: normal;">So yeah, call me boring for not enabling your little "chick with dick" fantasies. </span><span style="font-style: italic;">Tafuta mwenye atakubali lakini sio mimi.</span> Hell no.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: italic;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent;">If you can't see me as a woman, whether I have a pussy or dick or large clit or nothing at all, but me as me, as Lindsay, as a human being with feelings, emotions, intelligence, and not a mere oddly-shaped body, then FUCK OFF.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">I don't need you in my life.</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent;"><span style="font-style: normal;">Let me tell you something, If you come to this blog hoping that you will woo me into going on a date with you so that at some point I will allow you to "</span><span style="font-style: italic;">fuck me in the ass as you play with my dick</span>", then boy you're in the wrong hood!</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: italic;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent;">GET IT?</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">XOXO</div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;"><br></div><div style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-size: 13px; font-family: tahoma, 'new york', times, serif; background-color: transparent; font-style: normal;">Lind.</div></div>Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-76276509552288873442013-09-26T05:15:00.000+03:002013-09-26T05:23:19.475+03:00Re: Sasa<div style="background-color: white; color: black; font-family: tahoma, new york, times, serif; font-size: 10pt;">
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sorry aleki. im not looking to have sex with someone who just wants to experience a trans girl. that's insulting and demeaning.</div>
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i do understand your curiosity though... if i knew a trans sex worker, i would give you her contacts and you can negotiate a price. then you will get to have your "experience with a trans chic".</div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: x-small;"> <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">From:</span></b> Aleki XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX<br /> <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">To:</span></b> "kashwiti@yahoo.com" <kashwiti@yahoo.com> <br /> <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">Sent:</span></b> Monday, September 9, 2013 6:09 AM<br /> <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">Subject:</span></b> Sasa<br /> </span> </div>
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Hi, just been reading ur blog. I am an open-minded</div>
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guy and wud really luv to experience a Trans chic...<br />
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Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-11014011293284205092013-09-26T05:02:00.000+03:002013-09-26T05:02:57.833+03:00Maybe I Should Just Cut It Off<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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As I continue to live this life... this relatively new life... my desire for bottom surgery increases. I am increasingly getting restless over this. Over the lack of money, over having to tuck everyday, over having to explain things to new lovers... IT SUCKS!<br />
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My friend Veronica told me she didn't have sex with anyone until she did her surgery. I guess I can't be like her. That means I have to deal with 'coming out' issues all the time.<br />
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Men are simple. To them it is all about <b>penetration</b>. "If I am not inside you, then it isn't sex."<br />
I don't do anal sex. I do <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intercrural_sex" target="_blank">thigh sex</a>.<br />
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"<b style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">Intercrural sex</b><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;"> (from "inter-" and </span><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Latin" style="background-color: white; background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px; text-decoration: none;" title="Latin">Latin</a><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;"> "crura", legs), also known as </span><b style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">femoral</b><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">/</span><b style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">interfemoral</b><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;"> </span><b style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">sex</b><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">/</span><b style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">intercourse</b><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">, is a type of </span><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Non-penetrative_sex" style="background-color: white; background-image: none; color: #0b0080; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px; text-decoration: none;" title="Non-penetrative sex">non-penetrative sex</a><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">, in which a male places his penis between his partner's thighs (often with lubrication</span><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-1" style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; line-height: 1em; unicode-bidi: -webkit-isolate;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intercrural_sex#cite_note-1" style="background-image: none; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0b0080; text-decoration: none; white-space: nowrap;">[1]</a></sup><span style="background-color: white; font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19.1875px;">), and thrusts to create friction.</span>"</blockquote>
Non-penetrative. That's what they say. But trust me, <i>I always feel like I'm being penetrated</i>. And, I have been told, <i>they too</i> feel like they're penetrating. So it is all about <i>how you feel</i> rather than what the books say, or what your mind tells you, or what you're used to.<br />
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Many men still believe that sex is not sex if it isn't penetrative. If it isn't inside a vagina or anus, <b>it is NOT sex</b>.<br />
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But that's the reality. The reality I have to deal with every single time. I just want to give up. But I am human. I have urges. It isn't a secret. Let's not pretend I don't have sex. Let's not pretend transgirls don't have sex. We do. But I have to deal with this man who expects a vag but gets something different. Worse still, he gets a girl with 'some dangling meat down there'. Ugh!<br />
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That's why sometimes I think, maybe I should just cut it off. It's called <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Penectomy" target="_blank">Penectomy</a>.<br />
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Well... the other option is to stop having sex.<br />
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Life goes on....Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-70625299360501131432013-08-05T15:52:00.000+03:002013-08-05T16:01:48.871+03:00Why Are Gay Men So Trans-Misogynistic?This is very weird. You'd think that since someone is a minority, that they understand what it means to be different, that they'd get you.<br />
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I've found out that <b>many </b>gay men are super <b>trans-misogynists</b>!!<br />
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They simply refuse to understand/accept that we are FEMALE.<br />
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The mere fact that I am pre-op renders me MALE. Period. No questions asked. To them, your gender is determined by what you have between your legs. So penis=male, vagina=female.<br />
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Since I began referring to "that thing down there" as <b>my big clit</b> (thank you sir :-)) I've gotten a little - little - tolerant of its presence (<strike>nuisance</strike>) on my body. I've even gotten a little courageous and let my partner touch it - something I could never do before! But back to 'the gays'.<br />
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Even the thought of intersex is a no no no for them. You're either a '<i>penisman</i>' or a '<i>vaginawoman</i>'.<br />
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It disgusts me.<br />
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But then again, what can I do other than continue engaging them, talking to them, trying to make them see the world in a more 'queer' way ...<br />
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Gay men, be more queer!<br />
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LindLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-5851635801604087832013-07-31T07:05:00.001+03:002013-07-31T07:05:55.807+03:00Coming Out?<strike>Coming out</strike> telling someone you REALLY REALLY LIKE about your medical past/status is so HARD!!!<br />
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Anyway, life goes on I guess.<br />
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**Hopeful**<br />
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XOXO<br />
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LindLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-64136052355284366532013-07-12T11:16:00.000+03:002013-07-12T12:59:28.620+03:00Thoughts Today<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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To be honest, a lot of it has to do with relationships and relating. Yes, I have met many guys (and girls) who have absolutely no issue with my large clit, but I just can't shake away the thought (and maybe you could say reality) that it is a penis. I can create words for it, and say that it is a clit, since it resides on my body - a female body, but it looks like a penis. Thus, it is one. I lived as male for 22 years. I can't run away from that. I don't look male at all - or so people tell me. But I still see shreds of masculinity in my body. Like the tiny bump on my neck, the remnants of "5 O'clock shadow", the large clit ... the lack of a pussy. All these. They somewhat define how I live life.</div>
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I like how this gorgeous transwoman puts it in this (not so well interviewed) interview. <a href="http://thelexmonroe.blogspot.com/2011/12/amazing-transformation-from-arthur-to.html" target="_blank">Amiyah Scott</a>.</div>
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She so pretty!<br />
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<strong><a href="http://kenyantg.blogspot.com/2012/12/pretty-ogre.html" target="_blank">Pretty Ogre ....</a></strong><br />
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I'm also thinking about how <strong>quickly</strong> I become undesirable once I reveal the reality of 'what's down there' and my past life. So quickly. It's like a switch.<br />
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I meet this guy, we talk, we flirt, we like stuff about each other, he really finds me interesting and intriguing. Until he finds out I have a past life as male. All that is interesting about me suddenly becomes moot. Disappears. Gone. I suddenly am reduced to "that girl has no vagina?" person. Nothing more. Maybe even less/worse.<br />
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Now I just want to stop telling them altogether. I may as well remain on my own.<br />
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Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-79627186990295558022013-07-08T12:06:00.000+03:002013-07-08T12:06:56.468+03:00I Wanna Wear A Bikini!!I was responding to a comment made by one of my readers Brandi Rae on a previous post"<a href="http://kenyantg.blogspot.com/2013/01/im-jealous-of-cissexual-women.html" target="_blank">I'm Jealous of Cissexual Women</a>" Here's her comment:<br />
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<em>Hi,<br />I'm so sorry for the extra difficulties, discrimination, and drama you must put up with just because you are trans*. But I wanted to tell you, that the people in your life who decide not to be close to you based on your body meeting their expectations...those are not the people you need to share closeness with. The people who will love you for the woman you are, regardless of the package you're wrapped in...those are the people you need to hold close and not let go. And they are out there, I promise! <br /><br />I am a ciswoman myself, and I am naturally hetero, mostly interested in men, and I do love cismale anatomy... however, if I loved a man and found him sexy and wanted to be close to him, and then found out he happened to have a V instead of a P, it actually wouldn't be a big deal at all for me. ALL bodies are sacred, all intimacy is a gift and privilege to cherish, and EVERYONE should be able to feel sexy and desirable in the body they have.<br /><br />So if you wish to have surgery, I hope you can do so, but I hope you're not convinced you need it, just to make a potential partner happy. I hope you would be doing it to make yourself happy. <br /><br />Remember, that with many surgeries, you might not ever enjoy sex as much, or you may never experience orgasm again, due to nerves being cut or scar tissue, etc. So it's not something you should do just in case your future partner would like it better. YOU are the one who will live in your body forever, so make the decision for YOU. Besides, there are lots of people out there who have no trouble finding a body sexy, because they love who is inside it. I hope you do find them. I wish you so much happiness! Sending internet love and hugs! <3 em=""> <!--3--></3></em></blockquote>
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<em>Hi Brandi,<br /><br />I think my fear mostly with surgery is about that - loss of sensation and sexual appetite and the like. I hope it doesn't go away since I do do want to have the surgery. And no, it is not for the pleasure of anyone but of my self! I abhor the way my genitals look, feel and behave. I want to be able to wear a bikini and walk around Mombasa beaches without a care in the world. Right now that is but a dream. I have won swimming costumes but it is a one piece with a skirt-like cover around the waist area - to hide any bulges that might protrude.<br /><br />Thanks for the well wishes though! I know I will find love someday :-)</em></blockquote>
<em> </em>While I was making the comment, it reminded me of how <a href="http://kenyantg.blogspot.com/2010/11/isis-king-i-see-myself-in-her.html" target="_blank">Isis King</a> had a hard time when doing photo shoots that required her to be in a bikini. She spoke of how she'd 'keep everything intact' using tape and I'd think to myself "Gosh, I can't do that! Maybe use sanitary pads!" Just look at her before she had surgery:<br />
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I didn't want to show the pictures where she's spreading her legs (boy do I hate that! Reminds me of a time I was with this guy and he kept wanting me to spread my legs around him and I couldn't and he didn't know why - eventually I had to tell him. Huh! He wasn't interested! :-( )<br />
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After the end of ANTM, she had her surgery thanks to help from Tyra Banks and bam! She could do sexy poses such as these:<br />
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We all know where we're looking at right? Yup, the crotch! I WANT THAT! I want to be able to spread my legs comfortably and not worry about a bulge or 'things falling apart'. And I want it so bad! Not for anyone, not for a relationship, but for myself. For me to feel COMPLETE.<br />
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I know it will happen one day, I guess I just can't wait anymore!<br />
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XOXO<br />
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Lind.<br />
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<br />Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-49678987604783827662013-07-07T12:57:00.001+03:002013-07-07T12:57:57.742+03:00I'm NOT a Man, Never "Used to be" a ManThe other day Audrey Mbugua came into the limelight in Kenyan news when she filed a suit against the Kenya National Examinations Council (KNEC) on their refusal to change her documents as per her name change. She wants them to change the documents to reflect her changed name but they kept taking her round and round.<br />
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If you want to read more about Audrey Mbugua and her work, see her articles on <a href="http://www.transgenderkenya.com/">www.transgenderkenya.com</a>. <br />
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I met this guy in a club. I could tell clearly that he wasn't exposed to a lot in life as he claimed to be, considering the club had a lot of queer people in it. As we were dancing, he happened to touch my genital area. Twice. I was freaking out a little. Later while we were talking he asked me<br />
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"Are you a man who wants to be a woman?"<br />
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I almost threw up on him! I told him I am not a man, heard that? NOT A MAN, NEVER HAVE BEEN, NEVER USED TO BE!<br />
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I find that a lot of people while referring to transfolk will say "Oh that guy used to be a girl" or "You know she used to me a man" and stuff like that.<br />
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STOP IT! IT IS DEGRADING!<br />
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Once I came to the full realization of my self and my person, it was clear that I never used to be a man. I may have lived as a man yes, but I never <strong>was</strong> <strong>one</strong>.<br />
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So to all who interact with transpeople. The gender they are is <strong>the gender they are</strong>. It isn't their "new gender". Get it?<br />
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Lind<br />
XOXOLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-44334858583092555282013-01-12T23:41:00.000+03:002013-01-13T09:26:05.250+03:00I'm Jealous of Cissexual Women<blockquote class="tr_bq">
<em>This is deeply personal. I don't like talking about my body and sharing of it. But maybe it will help you understand a bit about being trans and being sexual.</em></blockquote>
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Yea. I admit. I am jealous.<br />
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Sometimes I even wonde what the guys who sleep with me see in me. I don't have the V so I can't do certain things. Its hard.<br />
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Sex is complicated for me. Very.<br />
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I try manouver around it. Have mental images during coitus, but its always a tall order.<br />
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Its not the first time I'm talking about sex.<br />
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Maybe because I've been having a lot of it lately? Or not? Or overthinking it?<br />
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Sharing my body is one of the most hardest things I can do. I only do it with someone who I deeply care for, and I can tell they do so to me too. I've been hurt before. No one wants to be hurt.<br />
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But that isn't the point.<br />
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I hardly enjoy sex. I don't think I will ever 'fully' enjoy it untill I actually do the surgery. It sounds kinda pathetic. Some of my friends get me but they still look at me with those eyes that say "you need to get a hold of yourself, girl! you're pretty!"<br />
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Whenever I'm naked in bed with a guy, I'm thinking "I gotta hide it. Chics don't have 'that thing down there', they have a V. So in order for him to <em>see me as a girl</em> I gotta hide it. Ignore it. Pretend it doesn't exist. He shouldn't even touch it! Darn! Its in the way. I wish I'd just cut it off and be over with it."<br />
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Several times I get hit on. And I see those eyes screaming "I wanna do you so bad!" but in my head I'm like, "Yeah. You have no idea what you're dealing with"<br />
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Maybe I should relax. Take a break. Slow down. Focus on work. Yeah. I will focus more on work and less on sex and men and all that sh!t.<br />
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Have a jolly good time y'all!<br />
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XOXO<br />
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LindLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-9437077086197638692012-12-06T16:04:00.001+03:002013-07-12T13:02:32.886+03:00Pretty Ogre<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Its late. I am with this nice guy and we are having fun.<br />
Lots of dancing, kissing, petting...its so nice. <br />
We are enjoying each others company. Even making others around us jealous.<br />
We go home. To his place. Its easier, I figure.<br />
I tell him a little about why I rarely have sex. He is not convinced. <br />
We pet some more. He gets his conviction. His 'friend' dies down. <br />
This is way too complicated for him, he says. He isn't ready any more.<br />
Yet wanted me so bad. He just can't do this. <br />
I pull up my panties. Turn to the other side. Tears in my eyes. <br />
Wishing I was the jealous girl dancing alone. <br />
She would've just done it, easy peezy. <br />
But no, not me. <br />
I gotta keep explaining. Explain why its complicated. <br />
Why I'm messed up...messed up down there. <br />
Why I just cant 'do it that way'. <br />
I know I'm pretty. <br />
But I turn into an ogre when I drop my panties.<br />
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It happened again. I met another.<br />
He saw me from across the bar counter. His eyes gleaming.<br />
I could see them drooling over me. Looking at me like I was prey.<br />
I thought he was cute; a little older though.<br />
He came to me. Asked me if I could dance with him.<br />
I agreed. How could I say no to those eyes?<br />
We danced. I liked it. He liked it. Our eyes locking into deep sensation.<br />
Dancing to the tunes of Rihanna. "Man down..."<br />
We left the club. Got into his car. Started making out.<br />
Mmmh.. I moaned. Good kisser. "Less teeth..." I advised him.<br />
Kissed some more. Groped. I went down. I liked it. Tasted good.<br />
He reached for my crotch. I panicked. I jumped. "No, don't go there.."<br />
"Why, what's wrong baby?" He asked. I didn't answer. Turned away.<br />
"Let me love you..." He reached for it again. "Stop. I need to leave"<br />
I wanted him. He wanted me. So bad.<br />
I wouldn't do it. It ain't easy peezy.<br />
I gotta keep explaining. Explain why its complicated.<br />
Why I'm messed up...messed up down there.<br />
I know I'm pretty.<br />
But I turn into an orge when I drop my panties.Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-1980013849611207862012-11-09T15:37:00.001+03:002012-11-09T15:37:54.825+03:00Of Tucking and Peeing<strong><u>Tucking</u></strong><br />
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You all know by now that girls like us who are yet to 'fix' things 'down there' have to deal with awkward situations regarding tucking. Its one of our really disturbing issues we have to deal with on a daily basis.<br />
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I've complained before about having an awkward walk from the bus stage to my place of work, in a skirt, and with 'that thing down there' trying to make life difficult for me. Yet again, I deal with it today. *sigh* Just reminds me how badly I really need to do my surgery!<br />
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<strong><u>Peeing</u></strong><br />
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I actually prefer peeing standing up! Yeah, I know... not so lady-like! But... I guess I am 'enjoying' this 'priviledge' while I can... surgery's coming up soon!!<br />
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XOXO<br />
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LindLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-9015274943577070422012-10-24T19:04:00.001+03:002012-10-24T19:05:20.663+03:00Its My Life<br />
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Hey guys,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Hope you
are all doing well.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I know it’s
been a while, a long while, since I posted anything.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Well, it’s
just that there's not been much happening to post about.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">But this
time around, I have a few things I want to get off my chest.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">First of
all, let me just update y’all on a few things.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I started
applying for my new I.D. back in March but its not been forthcoming. They’ve
been taking me round and round in circles and now I’m tired. I’m still
following up on it.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">The hormones
are going on well, though I’m still kinda bummed that by boobs aren't growing
bigger </span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Wingdings; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">L</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Anyway,
the reason for my post today is BOYS.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Yeah, I've
written about boys quite a number of times I know… but its always an issue.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">First of
all let me just say that for trans women, the ultimate goal is to look/feel/be
a woman completely and especially to the public eye. Putting it simply, it is a
goal of us to look so ourselves that no one can notice anything ‘off’. However,
not all of us are lucky enough to get to that point.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I myself
am lucky that I do. And with this comes some ‘shortfalls’. I'm talking about
being hit on. Yes, not the first time I'm talking about this eh?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">So what
do I do when I get hit on? What happens when I've found a really nice guy who
likes me, thinks I'm hot and everything and even takes me to his room and
kisses me. What do I do when he wants to put his leg between mine? What do I tell
him when I refuse? What does he think?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Well,
that incident happened. And I just had to tell him. I sent him this note:<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Hey,<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I thought I should just tell you what's
bothering me and why I was so uneasy with you.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I am a trans woman. I was born with male
genitalia and raised as a boy. But I've always been a girl. I've been living as
a girl since 2009. I've had surgery to remove the testes and I've been on
female hormones for over 2 years.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Being trans is not like being a homosexual. I
have gender dysphoria. It means when I was developing in my mothers womb, my
brain developed female but my body developed (mostly) male. Its a
genetic/mental condition. I am happy now that I live my life the way I have
always wanted.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I had a rough childhood and early adulthood. I
am glad I was able to 'fix' things.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I haven't yet had the sex affirming surgery -
to give me a vagina. So I still have that thing down there. That's why I was so
uncomfortable with spreading my legs.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">I don't know how this is going to make you feel
or how you are going to take me after this. If you feel offended that I didn't
tell you upfront, I am really sorry. Very sorry. Its not easy telling people
these things. You never know what may happen.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Hope you understand.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Take care.<o:p></o:p></span></span></i></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">That was
my email to him. He took it well; though I'm not sure exactly how he feels
about it.</span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">See,
men, your typical straight ones, like pretty ladies with vajayjays. Not with
other stuff dangling there. It’s not attractive.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">It’s
such a downer for us trans girls. A friend of mine is going through the same
thing. She had to reveal to this guy she was seeing that she was trans and now
he is having a hard time taking it in.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Both of
us felt that it would be lovely to just have the gender affirming surgery as
soon as possible: just to avoid such scenarios. But the surgery is so expensive
it is way out of reach for many of us. One needs like $10,000 to $20,000 for
it! Where on earth would one get such amounts!? *sigh*<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Oh well.
This is our life. We are different. We deal with it.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-US" style="mso-ansi-language: EN-US;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">XOXO
lovelies!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-74014199186426729882012-06-21T19:19:00.001+03:002012-06-21T19:19:06.754+03:00No Drag Queen HereI'm not a drag queen. I think people here already know that. I'm not hating on drag queens either.<br />
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I just thought to mention a few differences though; just so people don't confuse us trans women with drag queens.<br />
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<li>Drag queens like to dress up and "look fabulous" "hot" or something of the sort. We are actually trying to live our lives as who we are; its not something we "dress up" for.</li>
<li>Drag queens are all about acting feminine and looking the part. We struggle to be seen as our true selves. We don't even want to be overly feminine but we sometimes think the more feminine we are the more accepted we are. Acting is the last thing on our minds.</li>
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Of course there is much more info out there about why drag queens are not trans women and the like.<br />
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XOXO<br />
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LindLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-77938883913563552812012-05-11T09:43:00.000+03:002012-05-11T09:47:02.716+03:00Interview: “Man, I Feel Like a Woman”I did another interview with UP Nairobi - Nairobi's Urban Perspective. Check it out.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Who knew
putting on a line of lipstick and confidently walking down the street
could be an act of liberation? Or that slipping on a pair of kitten
heels or feeling the soft fabric of a simple frock on your skin, could
be a slice of heaven? This month, </span><strong style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Wanjeri Gakuru </strong><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">talks to a transgender on why she is hell-bent on having the world see her as a woman—the person she really is.</span><br />
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Lindsay*,
is a striking, cocoa-skinned lady in her midtwenties. She comes across
as a bubbly, fun-loving, typical Nairobi girl. But there’s nothing
typical about Lindsay. “I began my transition in late 2009. So far,
I’ve been on hormone replacement therapy (HRT) and undergone a bilateral
orchidectomy (removal of testes) to eliminate production of
testosterone,” says the confident finance assistant at a local NGO.</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">You
see, Lindsay is a transwoman (a male-to-female transsexual or
transgender person). In the past three years, she has continued to make
greater strides towards womanhood, going so far as changing the name on
her identification cards. “The next step is definitely the main surgery,
that is, the gende raffirming surgery. I’m not sure when that will
happen. It costs </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">quite a tidy amount so I have to keep saving,” Lindsay says. </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">In keeping with this month’s theme on women, we sought Lindsay’s take on the gift of womanhood.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">When were you first aware of your feminine feelings?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">I
usually say that I knew there was something amiss from when I was as
young as six or seven years old. But I knew clearly what “it” was called
when I discovered the Internet in 2000.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">How did your family and friends take it?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">I
told my mom and aunties about seven years ago. My mom took it well. She
assured me that we would go through this together. My aunties didn’t
all take it well at the beginning and, in fact, one of them was really
against all of it. When I finally began living as my true self, she
slowly came to terms with reality and nowadays is more at ease.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">As
for my friends, well, I had to tell them eventually, but most of them
came to learn of it when an interview about me was published in 2010. It
was anonymous, but most of my former schoolmates somehow put two and
two together.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Has their reaction, good or bad, changed over the years?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">At
first, most of my schoolmates had very hateful words to say. I remember
one of them taking my picture from my Facebook profile and posting it
on to his wall, and then tagging most of the schoolmates we had in
common. But somewhere along the lines, some good </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">comments started popping up.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">A
few months later, I met this particular schoolmate and he told me he
was sorry for what he did, and he only did it because it was new to him
and it took him by surprise. And that was [just] the first reaction that
came to him at the time.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">What gave you the courage to take the first step towards becoming a woman?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">I
always tell people that we don’t “become” women (or men in the case of
transmen), but hey are the gender they are, only that the outside
shows something different. I just felt that I couldn’t continue living a
lie anymore, and I was done with it. Life as a male was miserable and I
couldn’t consider a fruitful life.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Why is it important for the world to see you as a woman?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Because
I am. I am myself and that’s what I want the world to see, to see me.
The real me. When I lived as male, I put on a “mask” every morning. I
told myself, “Time to be a man, time to man up” every morning. It
wasn’t easy, despite having acting capabilities. I still failed
severely, often revealing my hidden identity and creating confusion in
those around me. I hated it. That’s why it is important for me to be me.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">As you stand now, nearly at the end of your transition, how has your understanding of </span><span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">femininity evolved?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Initially,
femininity to me was very laden with patriarchal ways of thinking:
Women had certain roles and responsibilities in society, and men had the
same. But now that I am myself, I am able to define what femininity
means to me. It doesn’t mean that to be feminine I have to wear dresses,
or put on make up, or be naive or anything. Heck, I don’t need to prove
my femininity to anyone. Femininity is a whole lot of things, but it is
mostly understanding yourself as you are and embracing it fully as a
woman, or just as feminine.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Do you ever worry that people can notice that you are transgender?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Yes,
all the time! It is a constant mental battle I have daily, telling
myself that I am okay, that even if they know, so what? But I worry
about it all the time, despite being told constantly that people can’t
notice at all.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">What’s the best thing about being a woman?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Ha
ha ha! I’m not sure how to answer that, but I can tell you that the
best thing about being myself is that I can actually be myself! It is a
thrilling feeling I have every day, being able to walk out of the house
and people treat me as a woman and not a man, as I used to be treated.
That’s a feeling I doubt I will ever get used to.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Are you dating? How’s that experience been for you?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Yes,
I am. In the beginning it was difficult. I used to have boyfriends even
before I began transitioning, but it never felt right. I’ve never
identified as gay, and so the thought that someone would see me as such
wasn’t something I liked. I was so scared that I ruined </span><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">several
relationships by saying things I didn’t mean to the people I was in a
relationship with. Two good relationships were broken like that. But I
met someone special, and he’s been good to me ever since. It was
difficult at first, seeing that he was straight and I was still living
as male. But we took it real slow and we are still going strong. One of
the things I find interesting nowadays is that when I go out and meet
guys and they happen to learn about my history, most of them are
accepting and say, “I still like you the way you are.”</span></div>
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<span style="color: #00c071; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">Who do you see when you look into a mirror?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">I see me. The me I always wanted to see all those years. The me I deserve to be.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="color: #1a1a1a; font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">*Not her real name</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 10pt;">.</span></div>
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Hope you liked it. I did!</div>
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XOXO</div>
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Lindsay.</div>
</div>Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-67966008485374238502012-02-18T12:40:00.000+03:002012-02-18T12:40:19.074+03:00Of Gender Reassignment SurgeryHAPPY NEW YEAR!<br />
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Yes, I haven't posted a thing this year. Sorry. Hope this year has began well for you.<br />
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I've been thinking of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sex_reassignment_surgery_%28male-to-female%29" target="_blank">GRS </a>a lot lately. I think it is because I am at a stage where life has become sort of stagnant, transition-wise. I am taking my medication as usual and its now almost two years since I had the <a href="http://kenyantg.blogspot.com/2010/04/yippie-i-made-it.html" target="_blank">orchie</a>. According to a website I read a while ago, it takes roughly two years for one to fully develop breasts. I so want that to be false! Mine are still small and I really want them to grow more. I just hope it happens soon.<br />
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About the surgery, its more of a money issue rather than a choice issue. I do want to have the surgery, and if I had the means, I'd do it NOW! However, I don't. And I don't see myself coming by that kind of money any time soon.<br />
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A friend of mine went to Thailand recently and when he was going I asked him to find out for me roughly how much it would cost now to have the surgery there, Thailand being world renowned for having the best GRS centres & surgeons & at affordable costs. He told me it would be roughly 12,000 USD (1M Kes). That's a shocker!<br />
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The interesting part is that I can do this surgery in my country but the hospital lawyers completely refuse anyone who wants to do the surgery to have it. They say its a sensitive matter that would have legal implications later. You understand that? Me neither.<br />
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Anyway, I will try focus on other things in life as I wait for the right time for my surgery. I will also try and enjoy life now as I am truly blessed.<br />
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Love,<br />
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Lind.Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-38723875311440032392011-10-09T09:50:00.000+03:002011-10-09T09:51:25.232+03:00High School....I rarely write about my high school days. But its mostly because I have mixed feelings about (1) writing about it and (2) the people who know me to read and look at me funny (don't look at me funny now!). But something crossed my mind today. And I thought I'd share. Interestingly, it has little to do with trans issues.<br />
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In high school, I was in the school christian union's music team. This saw me lead praise & worship during church services and be (on most occasions) the lead soloist/leader in the cu choir. But this post is not about that.<br />
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If there's something I noticed was that whenever we visited girls schools, (which I envied heavily!), and during church service, almost every girl was dancing and singing to the praise and worship session. But the boys, where I was, umm... <b>half</b> at least were interested, and mostly a half of that half were actually enthusiastic about being in church. The rest? They couldn't be bothered! They either sat down care free, or stood just so they don't be labelled as bad by other boys. And quite a number cursed the fact that they <i>had to </i>attend service. It was mandatory.<br />
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I never quite understood why. Is it a female thing? Or is it a peer pressure thing? I have no clue.<br />
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Just thought I'd share.<br />
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Have a pleasant Sunday.Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-63534049969314927242011-09-12T10:21:00.002+03:002011-09-12T10:22:02.188+03:00Changing My Bank Account NamesHey all, did you miss me? Hehehe<br />
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So I had quite a good time the other day at the bank with changing my name on my bank account from the old to the new, even the signature, photo, forwarding address and cellphone numbers.<br />
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Initially I'd been informed that banks usually require one's PIN (personal identification number) to process a new account and so I had made my way to KRA (Kenya Revenue Authority) offices to see if they'd accept a change of my PIN using my deed poll documents. Sadly, they said no. They informed me that I'd need to change my ID card details first and use the new ID to get a new PIN. I couldn't even use my new passport :(<br />
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Anyway, I went to my bank feeling frustrated and talked to an account manager there asking if it were possible to change the details on my account with only my deed poll and my passport. And he said yes! I was surprised and happy and I asked him to tell me what he needed. I explained to him that I was trans and that was the reason for the change of name and what not.<br />
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The guy didn't even flinch! He was like "Oh, okay.. so these are the documents you need to bring...." Yea! Just like that. I'd expected a tirade about oh how I'm harming God's wonderful work and bla bla bla but nothing! He never even asked why I did what I did, if anything we were talking about how our jobs are wearing us down! Talk about information & awareness!<br />
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Even the legal department staff didn't have questions. I was listening to his conversation with them and he was like "Yea she changed her name from bla bla to bla bla. Yes its one of those cases...."<br />
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And within about two weeks all my details were changed. The only thing that remained the same was my account number. The name, the signature, the address, the cellphone number, the photo! All changed! I was so so happy.<br />
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I'm now yet to go and get a new debit card. I'm still using "my brother's" card.<br />
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More updates to come soon. Thanks for reading :)<br />
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Remember, if you have questions, do not hesitate to ask. Feel free to ask me anything.Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-40768652149529521512011-08-16T11:03:00.000+03:002011-09-08T11:15:26.110+03:00Alien No More!Hi good people!<br />
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I know I've been out and quiet for a long time but its because I've been celebrating! I recently got my passport!!!! Hooray!!!</div>
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Remember <a href="http://kenyantg.blogspot.com/2011/04/gimme-name-change-already.html">this post</a>:</div>
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<i>Okay, maybe I am complaining a wee bit too much, but honestly, can't you see my frustrations? Lemme give you ten things I can't do now because "I don't exist".</i><br />
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<i>1. I wanna travel outside country. I can't do that because I don't have a passport. If I go apply for one right now they'll tell me "you can't apply using your brother's documents, go bring yours"... oh wait, I have none!!</i><br />
<i>2. I wanna go back to school. I can't because, again, I can't use 'my brother's' documents!</i><br />
<i>3. I wanna open a bank account. I can't!!</i><br />
<i>4. I wanna travel locally using an airline. Can't!</i><br />
<i>5. I wanna invest my hard earned cash somewhere. Can't!!</i><br />
<i>6. I wanna start a business. Can't!!</i><br />
<i>7. I wanna go for driving lessons. Can't! You need an ID or Passport to get a DL! </i><br />
<i>8. I wanna buy a car... Can't!! </i><br />
<i>9. I wanna get into a certain society and save money for my old age. CAN'T!!</i><br />
<i>10. I wanna buy a mortgage for a house for my mom. CAN'T!!!!! </i><br />
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<i>I. Am. So. Frustrated!!!!!</i></blockquote>
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The above list is what I'm working on now. I've checked off number 1! The next few months will see me checking off more stuff on that list :)<br />
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I. Am. So. EXCITED!!!<br />
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But there are some downsides. For instance I hit a snag when I went to try and change my PIN (personal identification number) at the KRA (Kenya Revenue Authority) offices. They informed me that one can only change their PIN using the ID only. And therefore I'd need to change my ID first before I can change my PIN. Drats! Anyhoo, I will deal with that soon.<br />
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*XOXO*Lindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18341460339467831112noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2213180057366601059.post-79001464353666175902011-07-29T13:24:00.000+03:002011-07-29T13:24:28.600+03:00Good News! I'm Not An Alien Anymore!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibpnmc3hriiTB78_1F_KHLKWFwP_ojbBBQH9esewSq3ZwHjyPCdChB56xzcENbuVLBdghCyjBcYxtcRXTipw0V_CYIijRB7XDDZXPFeayPFGe50Ctwxt0Co5nQ5mjoARRr_TiylMiXpCg/s1600/Gazette+Notice+No+%2528copy%2529.7645.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="227" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibpnmc3hriiTB78_1F_KHLKWFwP_ojbBBQH9esewSq3ZwHjyPCdChB56xzcENbuVLBdghCyjBcYxtcRXTipw0V_CYIijRB7XDDZXPFeayPFGe50Ctwxt0Co5nQ5mjoARRr_TiylMiXpCg/s320/Gazette+Notice+No+%2528copy%2529.7645.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>YAAY! Its finally done! I'm no longer an alien to the Kenyan Government!<br />
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This happened a while back yes, but I didn't want to say it before I got my passport but... ah I've said it! The above document states that my name change has been approved and I used the said document to apply for a passport.<br />
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I went to Nyayo House to apply for a passport and we went straight to the supervisors office just to avoid questions with the service people at the booths. The team there was very friendly. The supervisor took my documents, asked me a few questions, such as ensuring I understood that the passport would only show my new name but would still indicate "M" for sex because the documents only approve a change of name and not a change of sex. After we had that discussion he asked me to wait for a while as he seeks approval from his boss. A few minutes later (actually a while) he comes back and asks me to go with him to see his supervisor. We went in and had a similar conversation with the boss, i.e. about the M. We also had a bit of chit chat about the situation of other Kenyan trans people and how difficult it is for them to get by, e.g. getting jobs, passing, living, acceptance and so forth. They then informed me that my application was fine and I would now go to pay, take a photo and wait for a week and I'd get my passport!<br />
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I am so so excited about this news! This means that all the things I spoke about <a href="http://kenyantg.blogspot.com/2011/04/gimme-name-change-already.html">here</a> will be fulfilled in due time!<br />
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Thanks for the support people. I really appreciate it.<br />
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