As time progresses and life goes on, I am finding it easier and better to relate, be myself, be more confident and simply go on with it.
Life for me has improved. Its better than it was before. Maybe we established this already, but it doesn't harm to say it again all the same. Nowadays, I look forward to living. I'm at peace with myself. And I love every bit of it.
So what has changed? What's new? Well, for starters, I have gotten the chance to see some of the guys I used to work with. I saw them but they didn't see me. Or at least they didn't recognize me! I like that. In fact I think its very fascinating that my appearance has changed so much to a point where someone we used to see each other on a daily basis can now just glance at me at the stage and not even recognise me! Its amazing. It amazes me a lot. But then again, I love it. I love the fact that I am a new person. And that I can walk in town with less fear, if not none.
Unfortunately for me, the man in my life is struggling to embrace the whole idea. I don't like talking about him because that's the way he is. That's the way he prefers it. He is reserved and private. Therefore there are things that id want to do with him, such as go out for dinner, for drinks, shopping, on holiday together but it cant work. Why? Because he is still taking time to absorb and accept this reality. Th reality that the old me is no more and the new me is a reality. According to him, he still needs time to be ready to fully embrace the idea. Again, as I mentioned, he is a very reserved person and he likes keeping such stuff private, hence my not mentioning him everywhere! I don't mind it, I understand him. I only hope that one day he can be comfortable being out with me and not worry about meeting someone he knows and having to explain things. That's his main worry. He doesn't want to explain anything to anyone. At all. It may seem sad, but I understand him completely. And that enough about him. No comments.
In other news, my activism role is improving and I see myself travelling to places for lots of work. I love activism. I love spearheading change. In fact, that's one of the main reasons why I started another blog for my public life; to spearhead change in Kenya through activism.
The phenomena of transsexualism and intersexuality have been in existence in the world (maybe the west) for very long but has been deeply hidden in our country. Our country desperately needs a paradigm shift to change this scenario. It is people like me and my colleagues in activism including other LGB and mainstream human rights organisations to see us through. Yes, funds are there but its the manpower and will to see through change that is lacking. Again, invisibility of this community does little to spearhead change in Kenya. It is until we come out and show we exist that we can be able to begin influencing change in the society and in our Kenya at large.
I pray things start changing fast.