Monday, January 31, 2011
You have to realise that 2010 for me, was THE BEST YEAR of my life!!
Lets just walk through it and we see.
January was the time I finally went to the doctor to get checked, was worried about dealing with repercussions of transition.
February came and I was moving, oh the drama! Then came the time I was worried about losing my job. Life in March was getting better.
April was the month I had my Orchidectomy! In May there was me enjoying my life even more, and in June I blogged about my sexuality and about just how much my Mum means to me :)
July and August passed... September saw me reminisce on the day I said "enough is enough", October came, November too and in December I met most of my family for the first time. What a day that was!
And there it is. 2010 laid bare. And damn was it good! It saw the real me come out properly; like a blossoming flower, blooming and letting loose! Oh am so happy!!!
So far so good. I am more and more thankful. Beyond being at peace with myself and I could never be any more grateful for this opportunity.
My focus now is to see others in my position, or who are still wondering what,when,how,why,who and see if I can do something. Because I want this for someone else too.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Ugandan Activist David Kato Murdered
Sunday, January 16, 2011
I wonder if there is any girl, trans girl, out there, who likes the word "shemale". Why would you want to be called that? Or even "tranny". I don't like the words. I think they're derogatory. They're just wrong. Why would anyone want to always keep reminding me of the fact that I grew up male? Isn't it torturous enough just walking around with something hanging to always remind you? Then you come with your words to make the wound more sore?
I am still wondering about whether to tell or not. One of the things that are making me wonder is me asking myself, does it matter?
Does it matter? I ask that simply because I wonder if your view of me will change just because I I have "something different" from other girls. I wonder if your intentions of knowing me were even genuine. Or maybe you're just curious. But really, should it matter?
Here I am, trying hard to just be without being reminded constantly of this cross I carry, and yes its going well and am confident in my skin, but please, it is indeed harder when I have to reveal my medical history every now and then.
I think that's something I've been keeping in mind for quite sometime now and I do know that I have written about it quite often.
On a lighter note, I am happy about the progress my body is taking. In April it will be a year since I had the surgery and began taking hormones (which reminds me, someone accused me of being addicted to hormones... I wonder why he said that. Hmm.. anyway..).
I was curvy before I started, but a few months down the line, my hips broadened and I've noticed my waist getting smaller and smaller. Now, my boobs are larger and are getting fuller. I no longer use enhancers! That for me is am milestone.
I stopped worrying about my image and appearance a while back. I still do worry about it now and then, and the one thing that keeps reminding me of this, actually two, is that I still shave and I still have that lump.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Its been 8 months now... from when this happened! I'm so excited.
One of the things am looking at closely is this. So by April I should have progressed more! Yay!
Life is sweet. I don't take it for granted not one bit! I am forever thankful.
Its good to be me. To be truly me. I like the way (though not so much a good thing) my friend tells me "you're such a girl".. makes me smile....
Anyway, I'm still here... still alive... still smiling... still pretty (apparently).... and still.....